99 beer bottles on the wall
100 crystal castles in the air.

The right track to go with the day.

This is a like post. Not a like, like the facebook kind of like. But a like, like the comparison of two things similar in meaning. A like of two truths like irony staring right in your face.


I haven't been here in awhile like my french application that took a status of hiatus because I had no money.
But it hasn't been that long like the interval between rains in singapore. Yet it has felt like an eternity like two empty days in eternal loneliness.


This is a post like the jellybean box i just finished. A post about the pieces in my life that have been going on, are going on, have past. Things i've forgotten about or have been too important to waste on a single post, yet like the chinese calligraphy and the selling of Chinese new year decorations, are too important to be on a single post that will be ignored by masses.


Like a mouse that misses it's cheese. I miss awkwardness. Pure sensible awkwardness that mean a lot of things in the absence of its own melody. Mice don't really eat cheese do they. Only the whitest and luckiest mouse like the touch of fresh snow and the taste of falling snowflakes get to eat cheese. I would know, I've tasted snowflakes. But only in the purest sense of mind, with a broken leg.


Like the apple pie i baked the other day, like the movies i watched and like the tears i cried, I've been feeling the most energy i've felt in forever. But with holes. Loopholes if you might call it. Based on a concrete evidence of knowing something that's been missing, but evidently and purposely evading and avoiding it. As such, I've as of now, found myself stuck one foot in, like stepping through thin ice and finding a hole with your Ugged feet, a fish buried at the utmost end.


If there seems to be no end to your confusion like the mysteries of the Bermuda Triangle. I beg you to garner all your courage and all your heart and all your love that you have ever felt for me; like the love you've felt for a person good enough you wanted to save; and call me.


I have a bladder that's as erratic as singapore's rain. A period that accentuates my pee times. By accentuate i mean of course shorten like the shorter days, and shorter sleeptime in winter.


Muscle spasms. Like stroke.
I have tremendous muscle spasms that result in my arms being paralysed like a degeneration of a young body destroyed by second-hand smoke. In such dark times, a simple movement leaves me stoned for a half hour with a face that pretends to be in deep thought but a mind that is forever screaming "help me". Like the cake my sister ruined with frozen milk and baked. "help me." God save the raspberry-pandan butter sponge.


Definitely, maybe. Like the Kama Sutra.
A love guru type of movie that brings so many levels of heart-tugging and almost-epiphany moments. The complexity and development of the characters. The information that  we'll always be a little bit in love with someone else while we are still in love. The circle life of love itself. All like the great feeling you get when you find the right track to go with the day.
Again, proof of how music can reveal the tiniest things in life with SO MUCH truth. (like the facebook pages of little ticks of human psychology- the internet sociology experiment that actually worked despite how annoying it was)


Becoming Jane like finding the lost pain of the lost love with the still-there qualities.


Like my French application which took a hiatus cause i did not receive my visa letter. Like the signing up of my international health student insurance. Like the final confirmation of my acceptance because i wrote a letter that killed and pulled at heart strings like the "sutra" in Kama-Sutra. Like the pink pills that's supposed to make my heart beat slower and my hands stop shaking,  I find myself suddenly scared.


Like the worry that envelopes you when you finally get what you want and you wonder if that's what's really going to make you happy.


Like the mid-life crisis that leaves you all alone while everyone else operates like the seams of New York City.


Like this eternal abandonment I'm feeling.


Like this dark place I'm going.


Like the shiny knife short enough to go right through.


Like the loneliness I expect to find..


Like the empty stomach with no parents.


Like the pills i'm a slave to everyday, that's supposed to improve my life, and take away my pain


I have been accepted to the Ecole Nationale Supérieure de la Pâtisserie, En France. I will be leaving my life behind on the 30th of March 2011. I have spent a year in transit. I have spent a long time feeling happy. I have spent a longer time feeling sad. I have spent an eternity making everyone wait for me. I have spent a lifetime procrastinating and growing old. I have been to hell and come back. 


I have been ungrateful. Like the bird that would rather die than be trapped in the cage of life but the cage of lost freedom.

Full Moon Tonight.

i can hear you from the moon

Countdown 2011

New Year's Post.

huh? haha

I had no idea where this came from! But i love this picture! its like so spontaneous!

Those sauce cups held v bad cheap wine and raw Bacardi 

huh? X2

huh? x3

huh? x4

huh? x5

Awesome-ness in the clake quay square....

Britney and Gaga comes to singapore!!!

HE. 

Is soooo HOT.

(derrick barry/ Britney spears)

FYI: We were never drunk nor tipsy. Just a pure natural exhilaration high from being HAPPY. :)

Anyway it was probably the greatest end to a year, ever. For as long as i can remember (i.e before 2010) I spent new years at home not even bothering to watch the countdown on TV. and then hearing the sound of the fireworks and popping my head lamely out the window to search for it. Even though i knew i would never be able to see the fireworks from my apartment. This year, i really felt like i concluded something and like it was the start of something new. And someone told me rabbits and goats are friends. I guess goats dont eat rabbits right? So whatever's up with the Astrological signs or what's NOT up with it (ABCnews has announced its all a fluke/fake http://abcnews.go.com/US/video/zodiac-change-whats-sign-now-12614031) I hope its gonna be a good year for me.

I feel happy.

Together with...
Last and First clubbing experience of the year
Last and First pee of the year
Last and First Rebel of the year
Last and First drink of the year
so on and so forth.

And all things French.

What I did for 01012011

Or more accurately, a day before. When i decided to call my craziest funniest 2 friends together to do "the things we never did in 2010 and will do before 2011". Of which this included dying via the means of too much icecream and more painless, delicious ways of death list. Well, we never really got anything done except repeating the question "so what do you wanna do?". Taking a bunch of useless pictures that cracked us up so bad. Went to a roof. And took the lift down and up.... and down.... and up..... and DOWN. Because it was clearly, the highlight of our entire day. And cause there were hot dudes halfway down the clear-glass elevator.

My Cherrybomb <3

And then we asked ernest to smile.....

If you scroll up and down again at the last few shots and just looked at his face.. you would perhaps notice that his face looks.... like he's in the process of the big O. 

*Rolls eyes*

BYE!

I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad

TOO ECSTATIC FOR WORDS.

*cue* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3

Happy Birthday Lisa 221210

Happy Birthday Lisa! :)

A trip to a almost vegan restaurant Platypus, pastas all round. A super fail walkaround to "find out if lisa likes anything" and obviously she was too smart for us and a dessert round with icecream that never came and a BnJ trip that never worked out so we ended up at... Canele! Doing a christmas lucky draw/ secret santa. Having... cakes which are surprisingly v good despite everyone saying how they have a major fall in standard and all the inside kitchen stories ive heard about their staff... Good enough for a pastry boutique, not good enough for the prices though. Over-hyped, really. I see them clearing out in the middle of the DAY and every night. Oh, they do serve a really good cabonara. Super creamy and lots of sinful shit and the egg in the middle. Just the way i like it :)

God water.

Nice nails, nice angle. nice Polaroid. shake it! Shake shake it! Shake it like a polaroid picture!

I didnt bring her present. >< So she's holding sihui's!

oh yeah there was a gift exchange too. 

got my elf on!

Here's what i really did for christmas.

Stayed out on Christmas eve, made my mom mad on Christmas, had an awfully, mad, solemn Christmas lunch. Slept most of the day away and woke up to an empty house.

What i did for boxing day?

Made a pork pie. Held a Christmas pot-luck BBQ with the people i love and had fun. Then deleted all the pictures by accident, spent what was left of the rainy afternoon in my room making up for the lost pictures and elf-ing ourselves.

And things... got a little carried away....

So we took the party to wala wala.

What i did for Christmas.

Meet cherrybomb;

meet bangs;

meet karate kid;

2011

New Year's Happiness. First photos of the year :)