some people just have it easy with their emotions. I, on the other hand, find myself just being. well, melo-dramatic or nothing.

Take for example whatever im going to type right now. (that i will regret in the morning)

I dont care that i worked for free for 6 months. I dont care that during those times that i worked FOC, i prolly also worked longer hours than anyone else who got paid. I dont care that i also put in everything i got because it was passion or nothing (cause even though i had a lot to offer, no one would listen to me with no certificate, so that was all i offered. and i offered all of it) I also dont care that it ruined my sleeping times, my social life, my spare time, my thinking time, my life. I dont even care that because of this "job" where no one took me seriously, I put my entire life on hold and stopped figuring out what i wanted to do. I dont even care that i chose 6 months to be my lifetime rather than my already promising lifetime that would possibly lead to even more promising ideas. I dont even care that I'm already submitting myself to perhaps something beyond my ability or something that i will never feel challenged by. I dont even care that i have been kept awake for ages. I dont even care that my best friend is angry at me. I dont even care that my mom is angry at me. I dont even care that my future is still on hold. I dont even care that i lost some stupid security pass i have to pay thirty bucks to replace. I dont even care that my day has been just about SHIT.

What i do care about, is how nice i've been to everyone, and how i've tried to put my life on a very positive hold, change my life around so i wont start having suicidal thoughts anymore, how i've been happy everyday; And how it has just been shot down as not being "serious" about my work. **** YOU ALL. **** HUMAN LABOUR. **** EVERYONE FOR NOT SEEING HOW "serious" I AM. What I do care about is a little respect, and some appreciation. What i do care about is letting them see just how important i am and proving them old frickin stubborn minds.

what is it with people and their prides, they're spoilt and stubborn just as they were a million years ago.

beggin you.