1 feb 2011


ONE MONTH GONE.

wow. Pretty soon chinese new year will be gone too and the truth will finally dawn on everyone's heads that the year has finally begun. It will be the end of all holidays, christmas breaks, chinese new year visiting, and no one will have another excuse to relax, save for the minuscule one day breaks like.... Labour day. *rolls eyes*


With this presuming doom is also a change in my bedtimes. Possibly a reminder that as Im getting ready to start school in France, i will no longer be able to sleep till 2 in the afternoon. or wake up at 11am everyday naturally and having that be considered "early". Then again its a 7hr difference in Paris. Its 6am here and 11pm there. Guess what, im just getting tired. What a perfect time to go to sleep. 


What have I been doing since 2011 started? 
Getting my French application done.
Learning French.
Ballet classes.
Doctor's appointments.
Baking.
Meetups.
Starbucks sessions.
Avoiding text msgs.
Learning how to survive on my own.
Cooking and cleaning up after myself.
Trying to follow my new years resolutions with pride.


Unfortunately, I've had mild drowning issues i.e depression and an inexplicable worry now that i've found out that the majority of the 24 students at my school is above the age of 29. 
Minus all that and i've been fairly happy. I've been saving money. Yet finding it disappear all at once. I havent been garang with any new changes or challenges unless you count touching someone's butt and trying sheesha for the first time. (Which btw is not fun, tastes like nothing and scratches your throat and makes you sleepy if not high) And I have been treating my parents better, except with more loss of mind and temper moments. I guess having about 34 years of age gap doesn't make it very easy to get along with a 19 year old temperamental teen with tyroid. 


Life has been..... busy. 


I just got told there's a French exam that awaits me the week after the week after chinese new year. Who said anything about exams? I never paid for a frickin exam!? It's not fair. 
If i fail this one. Guess where im going? To the bottom of the pile again. Where over there lies no pot of gold and not even the end of a rainbow. Over there lies disappointment. Nothing else to it. 
I don't think i will fail. I just have to study more. More sessions at starbucks. Less morning cartoons and top model. 


And for valentines, I will be helping faith with her chocolove booth. And for Valentines, I will be.... home alone. with peanut. 
Shes awfully lucky you know? She doesn't have to worry about love. We keep her sheltered. 
I on the other hand. Am a hopeless wreck because i don't know how to tell the person i love that i love him.