as im leaving soon...
i think about all the things im leaving behind.

my parents..
cant live with them, cant live without them.
i can do without them in my life. and sometimes i think what a better life it would be.
how evil do i sound right now?
but. i think my head is clouded.
like pink clouds which dont exist
my mind shall not exist.
i shall not exist.
which is true.
im not talking .... GARBAGE.
i would not exist.
so while i hate them.
i also. love them.
i love love love love love love parents.
i love love love love love love love my mom. <3


my friends....
of all my 434 friends on facebook...
including the ones i refuse to add
or whom i know but havent added because im as stubborn as a frickin coconut.
Theres only idk how many who i'd say the most sincere goodbye to.
But i wonder how i'll manage so many different friends....
my classmates
my workmates
my besties.... gayathri koomanan, faith wong. revilia tanyadjaja (ok i know not counted cause shes like not in sg already so technically i said bye to her a long time ago.)
closest friends.
closet friends
secret friends
friends cause we cant be friends cause we dont want someone to know
SO MANY NAMES
and im not not saying anyones name cause i dont care for them as much as i reallydo.
if i say goodbye to you,
you'd know i really care for you.