I haven't worn my retainers since junior college. It hurts soo much right now omg. And im sooooo hungry. but if i take it out now its gonna be so painful too. a million thoughts are running through my mind right now about the consequences of wearing them and eating+talking tmr. Especially with 2 french classes tmr. One of which is in a freakishly large group of people who know each other much much earlier than they would know me tmr. You know how sometimes walking into a room and having everyone stare at you isnt a very good thing at all. Hah, who am i kidding. That happens to me all the time. Greeeaaaat, thinking about it makes me even hungrier, adding a plus+75 to my day but also a -25 to daily emotions and hunger level. Im also thinking about taking out my contacts so i can go sleep but i cant sleep cause im so hungry. Or thinking about the nice person who paid my drinks for me at the hotel. And i cant sleep thinking about how nice he is. And thinking about how my mouth hurts so much right now its like im a teething baby with boobs and i just want to EAT something soft. something soft like tissue. I want to eat tissue. And what happens if this affects my speech tmr or i cant eat. And i go into the room shaking like a leaf and everyone stares even more. In a worse way. And what if i cant pronounce my Us even more. :(

I havent been blogging much at all. Its a wonder how many thoughts and how many things i google everyday when im home and i have nothing to do at all. now that im back at work doing stuff, i get upset, i get happy but i go home and i sleep and i wake up and dont remember a thing. yet feeling a strange ache everyday. but theres nothing to write cause i dont remember. and its work. If i were to blog about work, I'd prolly be the most boring person to read about on earth. hahaha. maybe not :) Christmas is up. :)